it’s been far too long
i haven’t written on this blog since mid-summer, and it’s a shame because it has always been a great outlet for me. sadly, it’s been hard to find the time, or moments, truly genuine moments, when i’m free and inspired enough to write out. i kept telling myself that the time would come, skating by on little twitter updates of limited words and limited ideas, but it just isn’t enough. I’ve come to realize that I have to make time, so here goes…
my life as of late? busy and yet incredibly boring really, in an all consuming sort of way. i was always frustrated in high school and to some degree college by the amount of trite busywork that most of the classes required. well, being that i’m working entirely freelance at the moment, juggling photography, graphic design and modeling, i find that while many of these endeavors have some creative element, the lion’s share of my time is spent in busywork, working more for a client than myself.
things i’ve really become a fan of recently: the room 5, a neat little acoustic venue in LA. the following tv shows: Mad Men, Kings (sadly, canceled), Castle, White Collar, Trauma. Continuing favorites? Lie To Me, Sons of Anarchy, It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia, etc. Jeez, maybe my problem is too much TV. that said, i’ve become a real sucker for the continuing character arcs and story lines the format has to offer vs. film.
moving along… i’m building up my photography book, trying to get ready for this festival in the desert in the spring. i’ll probably read this come april and think, “oh yeah, that festival…”, but for the moment, it’s a nice goal. it’s funny, i like photography, i think it’s something that comes to me far more easily than music, and i enjoy the process, but i rarely have that long lasting, smiling for days happiness that songwriting gives me. for example, right now, i’d love to go write a song (the neighbors would probably have the cops come given that i write on an old baldwin piano). for photography, i generally get excited once i start seeing the shots, not well before. not sure what that means, but it’s a definite difference…
i really miss saul. i’ve been remembering different times we had and i wish he was still here. can’t believe it’s been a year almost to the day since he passed.
i don’t know where i’ll be in the coming months, years, etc. i guess i’m just enjoying the ride, and all i can hope for is happiness and good health, to be able to see each day come and go and appreciate them. there’s nothing worse that having a day close and saying “i didn’t do anything”. if only with small steps, i hope that each day i’ll do something that i love, that takes me closer to the destination that is my dream. there, that’s my new year’s resolution. i’m really jumping the gun but hey, i’ve got deadlines to meet.
until next time,
j.
